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Sometimes I cry so hard
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Thursday, June 30, 2011
Revalina-Ceritaku well went thru my mp3 songs list and found this song i find it very meaningful it's very true it's hard to forget your past relationship but life have to go on.. read lyric very meaningful Monday, June 27, 2011
starting to be bitchy again.. it's been a while i being bitchy well, i been keep quiet lately not updating about the things being in my heart well that one maybe too confidential but i'm mentally prepare to settle it soon... however, there one thing that make me fvcking piss off ah i'm just don't like lazy people even since i started work at age 15, i really dislike this type of people everywhere i go, confirm got this type of people and usually these lazy people are fvcking spoilt, self centered, fvcking perfectionists. it's okay to ask people for help. once in the while can la but if everytime you ask for help then the person help you every single fvcking time and end up you doing nothing it's show you are fvcking lazy and just want to use people's kindness it's too much it's also too much if a person help you and the person ask you for help in return but you giving em' excuse that you can't help it's show you are being ungrateful a person won't be piss off if you didn't start to piss the person off. confirm you did something wrong to make the person off these lazy people don't understand the true hardship that's why they take things for granted anyway being lazy won't bring good to life if you are lazy in every single you won't achieve any effort that satisfy ur wants and needs in life.. well, that's all folks.. Labels: work Thursday, June 23, 2011
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sentence "i don't need such distraction" "i'm not bothered being alone" remember this two sentence? yeah i will always do. actually this two sentence really make me realize certain things i don't certain thing to distract me like getting in love and etc i just want to happy by the end of the day not bothered alone? oh yeah i don't if people want to be happy with me or not so i don't bother if people like not being there for me it's okay i learnt how to be alone so i don't give a damn whatsoever Labels: he got say these two sentence before Friday, June 10, 2011
random need to update and make it a secret diary my room still in the mess maybe will not go ECP roller blade in Jurong then Labels: updated tired mentally and physical tired brain dead tml we will at ECP alone blading alone tml Labels: roll and roll Wednesday, June 8, 2011
syakilah's 130th early in the morning wide awake sleep early yesterday think all about it already i take my life far away from everything but not away from reality it's still be in reality just far away from every single things understand? Labels: far away land Tuesday, June 7, 2011
guilt of overspending This month pay i thought i can change my phone but.. no words to say i didn't change my phone instead i bought 'necessaries' do u know that i spent about $55 at Etude house wow! yeah i did but got discount mah and lifetime membership yeah Etude house member! hehehehe i'm sorry i know i spent a lot this month but i still have savings yeah i need to work hard going to register my license end of this month i don't care anymore last time when i want to license that's always a person keep making not to take license now but i motivated now by people around as they already got their license it's time for me to buck up and get the goal end of next year at least one of my desires license, i will manage to get it. done! Labels: license my early thoughts "forget it Syakilah" "Really forget it" that's was my thoughts early in the morning no! its my thoughts b4 i went to sleep yeah forget it. every single thing that you want to make it right. Labels: forget it Monday, June 6, 2011
127 posts suddenly like want to blog so here i'm see told you laptop make me distract from my study but i'm promise at 10pm will smack REL book in front of face lucky me PVL is open book but not REL sheesh nvm finished this two module then i off from school for two weeks but not project and work how i wish i can slack at home without thinking about anything? if i asked someone, confirm the replied nah! you wished yeah memorize all the lines hahahaha it's okay part and parcel of life anyway Labels: exam is coming really miss my lappy these days went to along house and sleepover without laptop maybe i just don't any distraction ba i didn't text people this days maybe being alone is good for health and mentally so won't like have so many bull shits happen anyway re-bond my hair so it's does makes me look messy it's much better going to keep my hair long no more snipping now keep quiet is better than that before i rather be like this than having a lot conflicts between human beings tiring you know waste time and energy well i love this way i didn't know being like can be so much peace even though it's does give much ease at heart but it's better this way Labels: peaceful Friday, June 3, 2011
mp3 i was like listening to my mp3 this songs called harapan, really made me thinked what happened a month ago. doaku agar kau kan selalu bahagia agar kau temui insan tulus menyanyangimu lepaskanlan diriku kerna keredhaanmu bukan kerna dendam jua kerna kau terpaska ku tinggal kan memori bersamamu ku undur diri bersama harapan tidak kesampaian cinta kita ku bawa harapan ku pendam rahsia ku di kejauhan mendoakan agar kau bahagia tiada lagi duka daku rela mengundur diri ku pasti dikau fahami tiada penyesalan kasihku korbankan andai telah tertulis ku terima ini bukannya ku pinta oh pergilah dikau diiringi keikhlasanku cuma pengalaman mengisi kekosongan mimpiku it's could be for two person one for my ex one for the guy this song really make me feel very sad however what had happen, already happen we can't change the fact okay update later. Labels: dashed hope Wednesday, June 1, 2011
month full of nonsense yeah may gone its full of bullshits and nonsense why? break up argument quarrel silent treatment emotional hurt its hurt a lot more than having sweet memories my friendship with her was brink of break up but ma'am shakilah kept asking to like you save the friendship yeah i will..today.. even though i don't know what to talk to her but i'll try my very best today mark 1 month of me being single haix that's i don't know and i don't want to know and i don't care well since everything over, i think i should said his name out but why suddenly i feel troubled if i said out his name here? maybe not yet ba let put his initial only Mr F not faisal have the same initial but its not him maybe his heart is not yet open any girls he's just get many hurt from us the girls but i didn't do anything to hurt him just told him i like you that's all but he said that he not bothered being alone. he tired of girls. sidetrack a bit ah he's got sister lei how can he get tired of girls? okay i sound like f*cking bitch so back to my story i thanked him for making understand that message even though it hurt (its really hurt me a lot, even i want to cry but i can't cos shakilah and sameem was there so i tried to suck up everything) truth are meant to be hurt we still can be friends (i don't know if i can face him at school) he apologized and told me that he got hurt really bad many times but so do i but i face it strongly i also scared of getting hurt but i risked my life just to get again and again which i find myself stupid well all i need now is to get back to square 1 where every thing is okay nothing is wrong i will make this June a month of redemption just friends and family, not to forget studies no love involve these things are the thing that i have to concentrate on if i go haywire this month, please someone smack this reminder on my head to mr F i will miss you a lot. thanks for being there for me during this month of bullshit ily Labels: time for redemption truth thank you for making me understand it truth are meant to be hurt so be it hurt are human's biggest enemy you tell me who want to be hurt in this world you think fun is it to be hurt Labels: meant to be hurt |
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When i done crying,you're gone
Gone far away from this world |
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